I had another birthday this week.
I am now 51 years old. I don’t feel any differently than I did when I turned 50… or 40… or 30… or 20! I don’t feel my age but I’m not sure how I’m supposed to feel at age 51. I am very healthy and have an active life.
I have now lived past my father’s lifespan – 49 years. If I live another 6 years, I will outlive the lifespan of both husbands who passed away at age 56. Many of my older relatives have passed away or are very elderly.
Thinking about outliving the people who are special to me is very sobering. I may live for many more years. It’s a shame that I can’t share those years with the ones I love the most.